I got a stamp catalog today in the mail... the new Spring/Summer collection. Guess what one of the new product lines has in it? Yes that's right... an owl. The very first one I notice is a decorative brad that has an owl on it, and the words "Hooray". Then I see stamps with owls, rub ons with owls, paper with owls, cards with owls... they're in lots of places in this catalog.
More number stuff today too- 1222, 22, 122 and 222 all showed up a lot today.
Honestly, I'm just waiting for the morning sickness to kick in so I don't have to think about taking a pregnancy test. :) I'm planning on testing on Wednesday morning; that should be plenty of time for the HCG to get to a high enough level to show up on a test.
So excited!
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
It's a numbers game... oh and some owls
Last night I started reading the book Vanishing Acts, by Jodi Picoult... I just finished it. It was easy reading, but one of those books you just can't put down. There were owls in the book.
I've been seeing numbers everywhere lately-- 122, and also 22. Yesterday when we were out driving around, I drove past a bus-- what number was it? 122. I looked at the clock on the radio in our kitchen when I was getting dinner ready tonight- the time's not right- what time was it reading? 1:22. The temperature when I drove the kids to school this morning? 22. The first two numbers on the tag for my grocery store frequent shopper card? 22. I know I'm missing some, those are just the ones that stick out in my mind. *** Update-- I just posted the blog, and looked at today's date-- it's 1/22. Wow. That can't be just a coincidence....
Also, as I was pulling out of the driveway of my kids' school this morning, I happened to notice the license plate of the car driving by.... +BABY- No kidding.
I'm realizing I haven't yet given the interpretation for 22 yet-
"The angels can see the positive results of your prayers, and they want you to have patience and stay optimistic while the final details are being worked out in Heaven. This is an urgent call from the angels to, "Keep the faith".
Okay, so the way I see it is that I'm pregnant. I'm definitely pregnant. I've seen the owls, seen the numbers, it's really happening. I keep getting this 22 message, becaue my baby is trying to work out with Heaven if he's going to be making this journey by himself, or if he gets to bring a brother or sister along.
I always thought that I'd have twins....
Amy
I've been seeing numbers everywhere lately-- 122, and also 22. Yesterday when we were out driving around, I drove past a bus-- what number was it? 122. I looked at the clock on the radio in our kitchen when I was getting dinner ready tonight- the time's not right- what time was it reading? 1:22. The temperature when I drove the kids to school this morning? 22. The first two numbers on the tag for my grocery store frequent shopper card? 22. I know I'm missing some, those are just the ones that stick out in my mind. *** Update-- I just posted the blog, and looked at today's date-- it's 1/22. Wow. That can't be just a coincidence....
Also, as I was pulling out of the driveway of my kids' school this morning, I happened to notice the license plate of the car driving by.... +BABY- No kidding.
I'm realizing I haven't yet given the interpretation for 22 yet-
"The angels can see the positive results of your prayers, and they want you to have patience and stay optimistic while the final details are being worked out in Heaven. This is an urgent call from the angels to, "Keep the faith".
Okay, so the way I see it is that I'm pregnant. I'm definitely pregnant. I've seen the owls, seen the numbers, it's really happening. I keep getting this 22 message, becaue my baby is trying to work out with Heaven if he's going to be making this journey by himself, or if he gets to bring a brother or sister along.
I always thought that I'd have twins....
Amy
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
No owls, but lots of numbers...
It's been very quiet here... no owls for the last several days. It doesn't bother me though; I have faith that (as I've said before) all is well and all is as it should be.
I heard from someone I know the other day about how I should be interpreting 1222 (which, by the way, I saw again today-- as well as 222.) She said to read 122, then 2. So here's what those two numbers say in the book, Angel Numbers by Doreen Virtue-
122- Stay filled with faith, because Heaven is working behind the scenes to help your manifestations appear. The more positive your thoughts and feelings, the faster and better this manifestation appears.
2- Everything's fine and will continue to be so. Keep believing, especially since your feelings of hope lead to more positive outcomes. The angels can help buoy your faith if you'll ask them for help.
222-Trust that everything is working out exactly as it's supposed to, with Divine blessings for everyone involved. Let go and have faith.
So I'd say that faith is pretty darn important right now. There's a great quote I found a few months back, "Faith is a passionate intuition".
There's two things that stick out for me-- both in #2.
First of all, the phrase that, "my feelings of hope lead to more positive outcomes" ....Positive outcomes, like a positive pregnancy test? (heck yes!)
Then also in 2-- "The angels can buoy your faith if you'll ask them for help." So I'm wondering if that means that I should ask for another sign. I feel like that's what it's saying. I'm trying to consider what I should choose as a new sign. I guess I should ask the angels, for guidance, right? I'll think about it today, and decide on a new sign before I go to bed tonight.
Once again-
all is well, all is as it should be.
I have FAITH.
UPDATE*****
I ended up seeing 5 owls tonight- a friend who is into stamping sent me a photo album of cards and other projects, and there were 5 owls just in that one album! How's that for the universe trying to send me a message!
It's bedtime, and I'm still not 100% sold on one particular image for my sign. I've thought of a dove, an elephant, a baby, and then even a triangle/pyramid shape. I've decided to leave it to my dreams tonight and see what comes to me.
...off to dream of a sign...
I heard from someone I know the other day about how I should be interpreting 1222 (which, by the way, I saw again today-- as well as 222.) She said to read 122, then 2. So here's what those two numbers say in the book, Angel Numbers by Doreen Virtue-
122- Stay filled with faith, because Heaven is working behind the scenes to help your manifestations appear. The more positive your thoughts and feelings, the faster and better this manifestation appears.
2- Everything's fine and will continue to be so. Keep believing, especially since your feelings of hope lead to more positive outcomes. The angels can help buoy your faith if you'll ask them for help.
222-Trust that everything is working out exactly as it's supposed to, with Divine blessings for everyone involved. Let go and have faith.
So I'd say that faith is pretty darn important right now. There's a great quote I found a few months back, "Faith is a passionate intuition".
There's two things that stick out for me-- both in #2.
First of all, the phrase that, "my feelings of hope lead to more positive outcomes" ....Positive outcomes, like a positive pregnancy test? (heck yes!)
Then also in 2-- "The angels can buoy your faith if you'll ask them for help." So I'm wondering if that means that I should ask for another sign. I feel like that's what it's saying. I'm trying to consider what I should choose as a new sign. I guess I should ask the angels, for guidance, right? I'll think about it today, and decide on a new sign before I go to bed tonight.
Once again-
all is well, all is as it should be.
I have FAITH.
UPDATE*****
I ended up seeing 5 owls tonight- a friend who is into stamping sent me a photo album of cards and other projects, and there were 5 owls just in that one album! How's that for the universe trying to send me a message!
It's bedtime, and I'm still not 100% sold on one particular image for my sign. I've thought of a dove, an elephant, a baby, and then even a triangle/pyramid shape. I've decided to leave it to my dreams tonight and see what comes to me.
...off to dream of a sign...
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Grey Owl & Conversation
I had a dream last night-- there was a large, Grey Owl sitting in a tree across the street from my house. There was a sort of a large nest that it was going inside of, then flying out again, and landing on the same branch. It mostly had its back to me when it was sitting on the branch. Somehow I knew in my dream that it was specifically a Grey Owl. I don't know that I've ever seen a Grey Owl before, but when I did a Google image search for a grey owl, the pictures that I found were exactly like what I'd seen in my dream- specifically, this one http://www.birdwatchingtours.co.uk/gallery/pix/Finland/g_grey_owl_l.jpg
Today was my nephew's 1st birthday party- I had a great time spending the afternoon with family and friends. At one point, my brother in law was talking about my other brother in law, and the funny things he does to keep my nephew and his brother entertained. One of the things he mentioned whas when he came to visit at Halloween, he was making *owl* noises.
Now keep in mind this was a big party- there were over twenty adults and at least 15 children. I find it pretty amazing that I just happened to be in the room, sitting right next to my brother in law when he casually mentioned owls.
All is well, all is as it is meant to be.
On an aside, I've been noticing that I'm seeing the number 1222 a lot- mostly on the clock, but it just seems like it's turning up a lot. When I looked up the combinations in Angel Numbers, most of them had to do with trusting my Angels and keeping faith.
Today was my nephew's 1st birthday party- I had a great time spending the afternoon with family and friends. At one point, my brother in law was talking about my other brother in law, and the funny things he does to keep my nephew and his brother entertained. One of the things he mentioned whas when he came to visit at Halloween, he was making *owl* noises.
Now keep in mind this was a big party- there were over twenty adults and at least 15 children. I find it pretty amazing that I just happened to be in the room, sitting right next to my brother in law when he casually mentioned owls.
All is well, all is as it is meant to be.
On an aside, I've been noticing that I'm seeing the number 1222 a lot- mostly on the clock, but it just seems like it's turning up a lot. When I looked up the combinations in Angel Numbers, most of them had to do with trusting my Angels and keeping faith.
Friday, January 16, 2009
Oh where, oh where have the owls gone?
Oh where oh where can they be? I haven't seen any owls in the last two days... coincidentally, when I woke up on Wednesday morning, I felt so calm, and peaceful and hopeful. That was the first thing that went through my head when I sat up- I feel hopeful. I've been amazed at the difference in how I feel- none of the doom and gloom of last week.
I also find the timing interesting, because I'm at the point in my cycle where I would have ovulated and conceived this week-- perhaps that's why no more owls... I've already ovulated and conceived, so the universe doesn't need to let me know it's happening- it's already happened. At least that's the thought I'm going with for now.
Maybe I need to ask for a new sign?
Or maybe I just need to have faith that all is well.
I think that's it- All is well, all is as it should be.
I also find the timing interesting, because I'm at the point in my cycle where I would have ovulated and conceived this week-- perhaps that's why no more owls... I've already ovulated and conceived, so the universe doesn't need to let me know it's happening- it's already happened. At least that's the thought I'm going with for now.
Maybe I need to ask for a new sign?
Or maybe I just need to have faith that all is well.
I think that's it- All is well, all is as it should be.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Owls Galore
On Sunday night, at the very end of the evening, I saw an owl. I wasn't expecting to see any on Sunday, since I'd seen the twin owls on Saturday. My husband was showing me a program on the computer that is for children- kind of like a computerized version of a felt board. One of the scene options was a forest with animals- and lo and behold, there was a little owl. Made me smile.
I didn't see any owls while I was awake yesterday, apparently they were saving up for when I was sleeping. Last night I was dreaming of owls... Owls on scrapbook paper, owls in trees, owls in books, there were owls everywhere in my dreams last night.
No owls yet today, but it's still early.
...Well, as it turns out, I did find my owl today, although not in a way I expected. I was thinking today about what a friend had said to me the other day about my temperament type- she said I was a "Melancholic". So I decided to poke around on the internet and see what information I could find about it. (I agree with her 100%, by the way). The second website I found said this- "Animals used to symbolize the Melancholic include the pig, cat, and owl. "
The OWL. Ding Ding Ding! There it is!
How crazy is that? Without even knowing it, I asked for the universe to send me a symbol of my temperament.
Another website I found attributed a specific bird to each of the 4 temperaments... of course the owl corresponded with melancholic-
3. Melancholic – Owl: Often very kind and considerate, melancholics can be highly creative, as in poetry and art – but also can become overly pre-occupied with details and facts. The melancholic person is a perfectionist, being very particular about what they want and how they want it in. These people are deep, thoughtful, analytical, serious and purposeful.
Very me.
I'm off to bed- let's see if I dream about owls again...
I didn't see any owls while I was awake yesterday, apparently they were saving up for when I was sleeping. Last night I was dreaming of owls... Owls on scrapbook paper, owls in trees, owls in books, there were owls everywhere in my dreams last night.
No owls yet today, but it's still early.
...Well, as it turns out, I did find my owl today, although not in a way I expected. I was thinking today about what a friend had said to me the other day about my temperament type- she said I was a "Melancholic". So I decided to poke around on the internet and see what information I could find about it. (I agree with her 100%, by the way). The second website I found said this- "Animals used to symbolize the Melancholic include the pig, cat, and owl. "
The OWL. Ding Ding Ding! There it is!
How crazy is that? Without even knowing it, I asked for the universe to send me a symbol of my temperament.
Another website I found attributed a specific bird to each of the 4 temperaments... of course the owl corresponded with melancholic-
3. Melancholic – Owl: Often very kind and considerate, melancholics can be highly creative, as in poetry and art – but also can become overly pre-occupied with details and facts. The melancholic person is a perfectionist, being very particular about what they want and how they want it in. These people are deep, thoughtful, analytical, serious and purposeful.
Very me.
I'm off to bed- let's see if I dream about owls again...
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Double the Fun
Today was my afternoon for "Me Time". It was so nice to get out and not really have anything I needed to do. I went to my two favorite antique/consignment stores, and poked around. At the first stop, I was scouring the place looking for owls. I had to keep telling myself, "when I'm looking for them, I'm not going to find them". I knew I just needed to relax and trust.
On the ride over to the second store, I really relaxed and reminded myself why I was going to this store- because I love to browse, and see all the neat things there. I wasn't going JUST looking for owls. I was looking at everything- if there was an owl somewhere in that store, it would find me.
And find me it did! Along with his twin, sitting right on the shelf next to him. :)
I walked in the store, and had a brief conversation with the two women at the desk. Then I headed for the huge floor to ceiling cabinets, where I always start my browsing. The first cabinet is full of old tools, so I always skip it and start looking in the second cabinet. The VERY FIRST THING I saw when I looked up into the second cabinet was a pair of dark brown owls. I'm guessing they were bookends, about 6 or 7 inches tall.
I didn't see another owl in the whole shop! But those two were enough for me.
Seems like I'm on an "every other day" pattern.
On the ride over to the second store, I really relaxed and reminded myself why I was going to this store- because I love to browse, and see all the neat things there. I wasn't going JUST looking for owls. I was looking at everything- if there was an owl somewhere in that store, it would find me.
And find me it did! Along with his twin, sitting right on the shelf next to him. :)
I walked in the store, and had a brief conversation with the two women at the desk. Then I headed for the huge floor to ceiling cabinets, where I always start my browsing. The first cabinet is full of old tools, so I always skip it and start looking in the second cabinet. The VERY FIRST THING I saw when I looked up into the second cabinet was a pair of dark brown owls. I'm guessing they were bookends, about 6 or 7 inches tall.
I didn't see another owl in the whole shop! But those two were enough for me.
Seems like I'm on an "every other day" pattern.
Friday, January 9, 2009
Letter to my Child
Dear Baby-
I know you are out there past the Rainbow Bridge, waiting for the perfect moment for you to enter our lives. I want you to know we are waiting patiently for you, and that I'm eager to begin my journey of pregnancy with you. I've been making space, both physically and emotionally for you. I imagine what events will be like to experience with a new little baby in our family. You are already loved, and I look forward to sharing the joy of that love with you, and with your brother and sister. They are very eager to welcome you as a sibling.
Even though your journey into being isn't what I expected it to be, I am so grateful for what I've experienced in the past few months. I've learned so much about my body and about myself. I've found so much JOY in everyday living. I am learning to be patient. I understand that patience is important.
You know your timeline. You know the perfect moment to join our family, and I now fully let go and release all my worries and concerns about your conception and birth. I already know you exist, and I trust you will find the perfect time to connect with me on this side of the veil. I'm so excited, because it isn't happening on "my" timing.... which can only mean your conception and birth will be even better than I could have planned. How wonderful!
I look forward to the day when I know you are here with me, growing inside me. I look forward to feeling you move in my womb; I look forward to the time when we will be both doing the hard work of labor; to bring you out into the world. I look forward to holding you, touching you, nursing you.
And if you decide that this amazing journey is one that you can't make alone, I welcome the opportunity to be blessed with twins. I have an amazing support system and know that the two of you will be well loved and cared for.
Join me in my dreams; let us be together in that special time when my mind can wander close to your home. Know that you live now in my heart; I will wait patiently until it's the right time for you to join me here physically.
I think of you often and it brings me peace.
I think of you often and it brings me joy.
I think of you often and I think of love.
Until the day you cross over the Rainbow Bridge-
Your ever loving mother-
Amy a.k.a. Mama
....haven't seen any owls yet today....
I know you are out there past the Rainbow Bridge, waiting for the perfect moment for you to enter our lives. I want you to know we are waiting patiently for you, and that I'm eager to begin my journey of pregnancy with you. I've been making space, both physically and emotionally for you. I imagine what events will be like to experience with a new little baby in our family. You are already loved, and I look forward to sharing the joy of that love with you, and with your brother and sister. They are very eager to welcome you as a sibling.
Even though your journey into being isn't what I expected it to be, I am so grateful for what I've experienced in the past few months. I've learned so much about my body and about myself. I've found so much JOY in everyday living. I am learning to be patient. I understand that patience is important.
You know your timeline. You know the perfect moment to join our family, and I now fully let go and release all my worries and concerns about your conception and birth. I already know you exist, and I trust you will find the perfect time to connect with me on this side of the veil. I'm so excited, because it isn't happening on "my" timing.... which can only mean your conception and birth will be even better than I could have planned. How wonderful!
I look forward to the day when I know you are here with me, growing inside me. I look forward to feeling you move in my womb; I look forward to the time when we will be both doing the hard work of labor; to bring you out into the world. I look forward to holding you, touching you, nursing you.
And if you decide that this amazing journey is one that you can't make alone, I welcome the opportunity to be blessed with twins. I have an amazing support system and know that the two of you will be well loved and cared for.
Join me in my dreams; let us be together in that special time when my mind can wander close to your home. Know that you live now in my heart; I will wait patiently until it's the right time for you to join me here physically.
I think of you often and it brings me peace.
I think of you often and it brings me joy.
I think of you often and I think of love.
Until the day you cross over the Rainbow Bridge-
Your ever loving mother-
Amy a.k.a. Mama
....haven't seen any owls yet today....
Thursday, January 8, 2009
I found one! And it was even green!
The previous two days were easily two of the lowest days I've had in a long time. I woke up this morning determined to have a good day. I was also determined that I'd find an owl somewhere today. (trying too hard perhaps??).
All morning I was on the lookout- looking at bumper stickers, clothing, books, artwork, where ever I could imagine an owl would possibly be hiding. As the day moved into the afternoon, I started to give up, and just enjoy my day. And of course, that's when an owl found me.
I was visiting a friend this afternoon with my children. My son started a craft that involved little plastic pegs that are assembled to create an image.... and what do you think the image was on the box that he'd selected? That's right- IT WAS AN OWL! I was beaming inside. I had him show it to me, so I could hold it in my hands... tangible evidence.
But the best part has to be that this little plastic craft owl was green. Why is that so significant, you ask? Well, when I'd originally sat down and asked for the sign, I wanted it to be a green owl, because green indicates growth and hope. (We just visited a museum with a large collection of armor and medieval weaponry, the kids did a "make your own shield" craft... hence the mostly-useless knowledge of color symbolism in heraldry) But then I thought, well, that seems a little silly to ask to see a green owl, that's not exactly a normal color for a bird. I suppose that God/higher power/the Universe wanted me to know that they were listening... loud and clear! I still cant believe that crazy little owl was GREEN.
I have hope.
I think green is my new favorite color.
All morning I was on the lookout- looking at bumper stickers, clothing, books, artwork, where ever I could imagine an owl would possibly be hiding. As the day moved into the afternoon, I started to give up, and just enjoy my day. And of course, that's when an owl found me.
I was visiting a friend this afternoon with my children. My son started a craft that involved little plastic pegs that are assembled to create an image.... and what do you think the image was on the box that he'd selected? That's right- IT WAS AN OWL! I was beaming inside. I had him show it to me, so I could hold it in my hands... tangible evidence.
But the best part has to be that this little plastic craft owl was green. Why is that so significant, you ask? Well, when I'd originally sat down and asked for the sign, I wanted it to be a green owl, because green indicates growth and hope. (We just visited a museum with a large collection of armor and medieval weaponry, the kids did a "make your own shield" craft... hence the mostly-useless knowledge of color symbolism in heraldry) But then I thought, well, that seems a little silly to ask to see a green owl, that's not exactly a normal color for a bird. I suppose that God/higher power/the Universe wanted me to know that they were listening... loud and clear! I still cant believe that crazy little owl was GREEN.
I have hope.
I think green is my new favorite color.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
I saw an owl yesterday
I've been struggling with TTC for 7 months now. I never imagined I'd be at this point; my two other children were both conceived in the 2nd month of trying. Each month that's gone by has been so filled with hope... and then so filled with despair.
I know there is a 3rd child out there for me... it's just a matter of when this child decides it's the right time for its soul to take a human form and live here with us. It's all about divine timing...I was extremely overconfident that I knew the right time- obviously God/higher power/the Universe has something else in mind for me.
I'm not terribly good with being patient, so I'm guessing this is all one BIG lesson in patience for me. I struggle every day with feeling impatient, and about feeling so out of control as to when I'll be pregnant. Will it be this month? Who knows.
In a low moment yesterday, I prayed out loud to God, to my Angels and Spirit Guides Hannah and Gabriel, and to anyone else who felt like listening to me. I asked for help. I need it. I've never ever felt this down and depressed about my life. I told them I need a sign. I can be patient and wait for divine timing to work, I just need a hint about when it's actually happening. I asked them to show me owls during the month that I'm going to conceive.
So that brings me to the title of this post- I SAW an OWL yesterday. At least I think it was an owl- I don't know what other birds are large, light colored and nocturnal. I was driving on a road near my house, and I saw a large bird just starting to take off in flight from a snowbank. I got chills- but was it just a fluke? Did I pick too common of an image? Maybe I should have picked a giraffe, or a zebra- no chance of seeing one of them roaming in my neighborhood.
I'm still sticking with the owl as my sign. I haven't seen one yet today, but maybe I won't need to see one everyday... I just hope I'm not grasping at straws here.
I know there is a 3rd child out there for me... it's just a matter of when this child decides it's the right time for its soul to take a human form and live here with us. It's all about divine timing...I was extremely overconfident that I knew the right time- obviously God/higher power/the Universe has something else in mind for me.
I'm not terribly good with being patient, so I'm guessing this is all one BIG lesson in patience for me. I struggle every day with feeling impatient, and about feeling so out of control as to when I'll be pregnant. Will it be this month? Who knows.
In a low moment yesterday, I prayed out loud to God, to my Angels and Spirit Guides Hannah and Gabriel, and to anyone else who felt like listening to me. I asked for help. I need it. I've never ever felt this down and depressed about my life. I told them I need a sign. I can be patient and wait for divine timing to work, I just need a hint about when it's actually happening. I asked them to show me owls during the month that I'm going to conceive.
So that brings me to the title of this post- I SAW an OWL yesterday. At least I think it was an owl- I don't know what other birds are large, light colored and nocturnal. I was driving on a road near my house, and I saw a large bird just starting to take off in flight from a snowbank. I got chills- but was it just a fluke? Did I pick too common of an image? Maybe I should have picked a giraffe, or a zebra- no chance of seeing one of them roaming in my neighborhood.
I'm still sticking with the owl as my sign. I haven't seen one yet today, but maybe I won't need to see one everyday... I just hope I'm not grasping at straws here.
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