I saw an owl yesterday

I've been struggling with TTC for 7 months now. I never imagined I'd be at this point; my two other children were both conceived in the 2nd month of trying. Each month that's gone by has been so filled with hope... and then so filled with despair.

I know there is a 3rd child out there for me... it's just a matter of when this child decides it's the right time for its soul to take a human form and live here with us. It's all about divine timing...I was extremely overconfident that I knew the right time- obviously God/higher power/the Universe has something else in mind for me.

I'm not terribly good with being patient, so I'm guessing this is all one BIG lesson in patience for me. I struggle every day with feeling impatient, and about feeling so out of control as to when I'll be pregnant. Will it be this month? Who knows.

In a low moment yesterday, I prayed out loud to God, to my Angels and Spirit Guides Hannah and Gabriel, and to anyone else who felt like listening to me. I asked for help. I need it. I've never ever felt this down and depressed about my life. I told them I need a sign. I can be patient and wait for divine timing to work, I just need a hint about when it's actually happening. I asked them to show me owls during the month that I'm going to conceive.

So that brings me to the title of this post- I SAW an OWL yesterday. At least I think it was an owl- I don't know what other birds are large, light colored and nocturnal. I was driving on a road near my house, and I saw a large bird just starting to take off in flight from a snowbank. I got chills- but was it just a fluke? Did I pick too common of an image? Maybe I should have picked a giraffe, or a zebra- no chance of seeing one of them roaming in my neighborhood.

I'm still sticking with the owl as my sign. I haven't seen one yet today, but maybe I won't need to see one everyday... I just hope I'm not grasping at straws here.